it's the final countdown.....

        Someone sent that Europe video to the Mr this week and I now I can't get it out of my head--I guess it is pretty accurate. We are days away, next Tuesday to be exact, from being responsible for another human being---what the hell were we thinking????? That is a heck of a commitment , certainly the longest relationship either one of us have ever been in.
       With the exception of a couple of outfits I want to dress the biscuit in, I don't have anything planned. I have no idea what life will be like. I haven't thought about the routine, the first time I will go to the store by myself kid in tow,  how I am going to ever get my nails painted or if I will ever make the bed again. That's probably my biggest concern--how dirty will the house get , will it smell like diapers and will I know it smells like diapers ??? Someone please tell me if the house , or me for that matter, starts to smell of poo.
        We have a couple of names, but we aren't really sold on a girl's name yet. I swear if they would let me leave with a certificate that let me fill it in later, I would do it. I don't really know what I want to call it for sure. What if I pick a name and then hate it later ? What if I pick a name just to meet some jackass with the same name and now it makes me angry ? I am leaning towards "Biscuit" --I think the baby is used to that by now anyway. Kids also don't come to you really knowing any thing --you have to "teach" them --WHAT ????!!!!!!! ---I'm gonna have to show this kid how to "Google" and FAST. Google is awesome--it is a huge reason why I am so smart and well-read.
        All in all this is hands down the most amazing experience of my life. I highly recommend it and hope that my old ass holds up long enough to do it one more time. I really tried to talk myself into feeling like I was "missing out on things". Music, events, friends, wine and so forth. The truth is, I haven't been able to even talk myself into it-I haven't missed out on anything. I have amazing friends, have seen great music, had so much fun with my husband and even had a little wine---although the biscuit REALLY loves to sip daddy's beer--it just smells yummy right now--just a sip. My life has been only better for this.
        I have noticed that my writing has taken a turn, I am surprisingly more tolerant. I have found that although I start to bitch about something, instead of going to write about it, I go mess around in the babies room or sew little pants. Have I gone soft ??? I don't think so --I am just in a very "soft" phase right now as I wait for the arrival. I have faith that soon after the lack of sleep kicks in and some midnight feedings covered in crap, I will be back to my old bitter self and ready to get back to business. There are still so many  ridiculous things that I need to talk about, so many of my opinions that I think people need to hear. So, give me a few minutes to gather myself and spend some time with my new angel---then...........you're gonna get it !! 


Peace